A little for me, a little for you

I'm starting this blog for two primary reasons:

1. I really, really need some kind of outlet aside from my halting attempts at creative writing
2. If I'm going to use personal writing as an outlet, someone else may as well benefit

Back when I was thinking about med school I read a lot of things - I read stuff on the Student Doctor Network Forums, Lone Coyote's Blog, all kinds of books and anything else I could get my hands on. I'm big on reading and researching, I guess. In all the time I spent searching, I didn't find anything that would prepare me for what would happen when I walked through the doors of my new lecture hall. It's not just a lot of information, it's insanity.

Maybe I've lost my mind, but I don't think I would trade it for anything else.

Some of my classmates, or surely some of my med school brothers and sisters across the world, might not say the same thing at this point. My days are long and I seem to have an endless pile of ridiculous facts to memorize. I never get enough exercise, my house is usually a mess, and Friday night is henceforth known as "Date Night," one night of the week that I absolutely reserve to be with my husband. Nights like tonight I don't want to let go of the weekend as I sit up too late typing on my computer, wishing the clock would stop so I could squeeze in another hour or two of relaxation time.

I've thought about quitting plenty of times, along with most of my friends. It's hard not to at least think of it in a casual kind of way (also very hard not to spend a couple hours looking up all the grad schools you could have attended in another life). However, a year and a half into the experience with 2.5 years to go, I'm starting to see a future for myself which might not be so bad.

Thus I do what I can to stay sane, sometimes neglecting other chores just so I can have a bit of happiness in my life. I write, play Skyrim (my second home), take long walks with my husband, have silly barbeques with my friends from med school now bonded to me through shared traumatic experience. I'm writing this blog not just to educate others, but also to remind myself of why I do all of this in the first place. Maybe somewhere out there you're reading this, just as curious about me as I am about you. Perhaps that's just vanity; I don't know. I'll keep writing to you anyway, dear reader.